I feel you. I took a very low dose of MDMA at a festival and I was euphoric or hight or anything. But for the first time in ever I had no filter issues. All the noises that drive me crazy all the time, just didn’t bother me. Same with touch. It just cured it. For one evening.
A couple of mentions for cocaine here, but for me it was MDMA. I never understood how you could get addicted to anything until I was at the club and I really really really wanted another line of that love powder and immediately decided to never do it again. Then I did it again.
It could get pretty bad pretty fast if you are not careful. Been in the situation a couple of times, thinking “meh. I will push through it”. And then it got ugly. Please take care of yourself and take all the help you can get.
Lived in Berlin for over 20 years. I will never call a Berliner a Pfannkuchen.
Please tell me what a Berliner is to you.
Do you want to elaborate?